Alam ko na magaling lang ako sa umpisa
Umasa ka pa sa akin; mga pangakong nauwi lang sa wala
Nasayang lang ang ‘yong pagtitiyaga
Wala kang napala at puro lang ako salita
Kaya pala paggising ko wala ka na

Makatarungan pa ba to?

Now all I can think of are cats

I finally remembered this song that took a good three years of my life because I couldn’t remember the lyrics nor the title, only the tune. And then I started asking, and BAM! Green paper, and sea metaphors of me. Memory betrays, memory destroys. Maybe my Psych prof can help me unlearn something as devastating as that.

By the off-chance that things get messy;

You’re going to have to deal with a lot of changing when it comes to being with me. I’m a moving thing, a thinking thing, a person who is most weary when she is not mobile. You’re going to have to deal with the fact that I am forever going to be walking around, and running away from you because I have to. I am distant, most of the time, but my heart and peace of mind will always be with you; a piece of me will always remain, as to wherever I go, I always stay. It is in my nature to forever be in a constant steady pace, because I was driven to be one with this rotating earth — like you. I’m going to be difficult to be with because of all the distance we have between us. I’m going to be always in a rush state, and I’m always going to want to be where you are, and be with you, for more than a day. I’m always going to want that, and I’m always going to work towards that. But you’re going to have to understand. But if you can’t, then there’s nothing I can do.

Siyang lubos na pinagpala ng mga diyos

Sabi sa kin ng isa kong kaibigan, galit raw ang mga Hapon sa perfection dahil para sa kanila, walang bagay na perfect dahil continuous lagi ang proseso ng mga bagay: nagbabago. A “perfect” thing has no room for improvement, hence napaka sad raw non na habambuhay silang hindi magbabago. So hindi sila naniniwala sa konseptong ito.

Hindi ko alam kung codename ang kultura ng mga Hapon sa context na ito. Ayokong maniwala, pero bumenta sa akin yong ideya niya ng perfection. Mula siguro rito masasabi kong wala akong lahing Hapon.

Textual evidence: Perpekto si John Mayer. Shet.