By the off-chance that things get messy;

You’re going to have to deal with a lot of changing when it comes to being with me. I’m a moving thing, a thinking thing, a person who is most weary when she is not mobile. You’re going to have to deal with the fact that I am forever going to be walking around, and running away from you because I have to. I am distant, most of the time, but my heart and peace of mind will always be with you; a piece of me will always remain, as to wherever I go, I always stay. It is in my nature to forever be in a constant steady pace, because I was driven to be one with this rotating earth — like you. I’m going to be difficult to be with because of all the distance we have between us. I’m going to be always in a rush state, and I’m always going to want to be where you are, and be with you, for more than a day. I’m always going to want that, and I’m always going to work towards that. But you’re going to have to understand. But if you can’t, then there’s nothing I can do.

#nowplaying Wedding Bells – Coldplay

Those wedding bells are ringing up upon that hill
And I don’t wanna swallow such a bitter pill
You keep on moving, but, I stay still
But I always loved you and I always will

Days of no sleeping
Caked in mud
All kinds of poison in my blood
I lost the only thing I ever loved

I heard them ringing and processioning by
Umbrellas in the clear blue sky
I saw you swimming in that sea of white

And wedding bells ringing up upon that hill
And I don’t wanna swallow such a bitter pill
You keep on moving, baby, I stay still
I always loved you and I always will

I loved you and I see it still
I always loved you and I always will
Singing

If everything that went before didn’t matter, so
I always loved you and I always will

Umiyak ako nong una kong napakinggan.
Actually hanggang ngayon.

Director’s Cut, Kamikazee

Ito ang alarm ko dati. Second year high school. Pero pagkatapos ng isang pangyayari, nang marinig kong ginigising ako ng lintik na kantang to, umiyak ako bigla. At naligo. At nagbihis. Naghanda. Pinalitan ang alarm tone.

At, unti-unti, sinubukan kong iwan ang alaala mo.

Pagmulat ng mata
Agad kong naalala
Kagabi sinabi mong ayaw mo na
May mali ka bang nakita?
May mali bang nagawa?
Bigla na lang naisip mong ayaw mo na

Lahat ng gusto mo
Tamang sunod ako
Nagtataka bakit biglang ayaw mo na
Nabigla ko ng lubusan
Nang ako iyong aking iwanan
Basta na lang naisip mong ayaw mo na

Lumingon sandali lang
Bago mo tuluyang iwan
Nais kong

Sumigaw, palabas
At sasabihin sayo ang lahat
Tumakbo, palayo
At iiwanan na ang alaala mo

Nanginginig, nalulungkot, nahihibang, at tulala
Pagod na yata ang ngiti
Nauubos din ang tuwa
Nag-iisa, umiiyak, nahihirapang huminga
Pagod na yata ang ngiti
Nauubos din ang tuwa

Nanginginig nalulungkot

Lumingon sandali lang
Bago mo tuluyang iwan
Nais kong

Sumigaw, palabas
At sasabihin sayo ang lahat
Tumakbo, palayo
At iiwanan na ang alaala mo

At kung hindi na babalik
Sana sa pag-gising ay wala na ang nadaramang sakit
At kung hindi na babalik
Pilit sasabihin na hindi ako nagkamali

Sumigaw, palabas
At sasabihin sayo ang lahat
Tumakbo, palayo
At iiwanan na ang alaala mo

Sumigaw, palabas
At iiwanan na ang alaala mo
Tumakbo, palayo
At iiwanan na ang alaala mo